Hi guys if similar thread has been discussed earlier then sorry and mods can delete this thread.....
Actually I always wanted to know how other people feel if they have to sleep alone in some hotel room...... due to my job I sometimes have to travel and obviously have to stay in hotels.....
I don't know why but whenever I travel and return to my room at the end of the day toughest part of my travel journey begins.....
My mind unwantedly starts thinking about dead people, ghost stories..... I feel so scared that whole night I'm forced to keep my room lights on and keep TV running.... almost up to 4 am I keep watching action movies to feel better..... I don't even drink a water so I don't have to go to loo alone in the night...... in such cases I end up sleeping till late and it affects my next day schedule..... even at home if I have to stay alone I sleep but can't sleep without lights on..... don't know what to do..... if you guys have such problems please share.....
Your problem is psychological, as you may have already figured out. This is a form of anxiety that is manifesting itself in the form that you see. Such anxiety, never really goes away, but transforms itself into something else.
It looks like your anxiety is currently manifesting/triggering itself in your sleep/loneliness situations. Maybe in a couple of years, the trigger will be some financial issue or some health issue. For example, you could start worrying about finances, even though there are no financial pressures in your life, but you think and convince yourself that certain financial decisions could unleash monetary ruin on your life. In the same way, you might start having some chest pains, and you will become a hypochondriac and convince yourself that you are having heart issues.
The best way to tackle such issues, is to see a psychiatrist.
In the absence of seeing a psychiatrist, it would be advisable to make small achievable gains by doing a few things
1. Try and lower the stress in your life. Exercise is one of the best mechanisms. In your particular case, you should exhaust yourself in the gym in the evening, so that you get to your room in the evening and fall asleep.
2. I note that you said you sleep with the lights on. Perhaps set a goal of lowering that over the days or weeks. For example, if you have 5 lights on, then first lower that to 4 and so on, until you just need maybe just a small night light.
3. Slowly convince yourself that your problem is psychological, and you control the solution. That is, there are no external factors that will influence or interrupt your life/sleep at night.
And finally, as a Muslim, I must advise on the calmness I feel, when I listen or read the Quran. I know this does not apply to you, but this has been known to be helpful to many, including myself. There are plenty of Quran recitals on YouTube.