@Starlord
It looks like you are in a very hard situation.
1 - You can't leave that place.
2 - You can't sever your relations with your aunts.
3 - You have panic attacks when you pray.
It is a difficult situation.
You have to sit in the company of good knowldgeable people. Don't go to an aamil, he will not be able to help you. As I told you, the solution is long, but it starts from salaat, nothing less.
Since you have mentioned about really bad panic attacks, let me tell you that 20 years back I was in a similar situation. The panic attacks were so bad that I passed out a couple of times during those panic attacks.. I saw many doctors, many amils etc.. no one could help.. Doctors even had to conduct certain tests on my brain to check some kind of imbalance (I don't remember the details).
The only thing I remember was that I made Allah extremely angry due to my certain acts (people shouldn't jump after reading this.. it has nothing to do with zina etc).. I couldn't pray at home.. It was like Allah Himself was so angry that He wouldn't give me strength to pray. Imagine a situation when you know that you have made Allah angry and then you are not even able to pray.. It felt like I will die when I do Sajda.. Started seeing things.. But I didn't leave my tries.. I started going to masjid to pray.. wept, cried.. sometimes alone in the mosque after Isha prayers.. Things improved after that..
No doctor/ aalim could help me.. Only prayers and asking forgiveness helped.
