I swear, just today few hours ago we had a funeral of my 3 days old(hardly) nephew(cousin sister's son) who died due to heart defect. He had surgery yesterday and was supposed to have another surgery 2 weeks later if he could survive but he didn't. His parents especially my cousin sister is in worst mental condition right now. It was her first child.
Atleast, you have some thing to live for - your kid. Hang in there.
My best wishes.
My wife and I were in a similar situation last year. We tried to have a baby for years and last year my wife got pregnant after 5 years of marriage, but unfortunately she had a miscarriage 10 weeks later :-(. We were devastated... and you know how our Pakistani families talk, when you don't have 5 kids in 5 years. Is there any problem? Can't she conceive? And other ugly remarks towards her and me. It was a hard time and we had sabr alhamdulillah.
Now we have a cute little baby boy crying in our condo and don't letting us sleep.
Hardship and ease brothers and sisters. Alhamdulillah for everything, for the bad, for the good, for just everything we have or don't have!
My aunt and my bestie both died due to accident, i used to share everything with them. My friend died in bike accident this month.
Sad to hear that brother. But don't let that get you down. Think positive things like: I will pray for my loved ones every day! Remember them with love and make dua for their afterlife. This will help you to cope with the situation. We are all random mortals and one day we will be united in Jannatul Firdaus, stay strong my dear brother! Such news show us what is important in life: friends and family, you will cherish your relationships even more after that!
Bad relationship and then I lost my soul friend in bike accident. He just got engaged.
Bhai, I don't know what kind of relationship you have but sometimes it can help to move to another city or area to have some distance from other family members who may pour oil into the fire. Start from there again together!
May Allah ease your situation brother, deaths happen (no, I am not insensitive, we just have to acknowledge this basic fact of our existence), pray for the diseased, the brothers here gave you some good advice especially jogging helps me to clear my mind. All the best to you!