INTERVIEWER
Are you going to stay in the Square yourself?
CHAI LING
No, I won't.
INTERVIEWER
Why?
CHAI LING
Because my situation is different. My name is on the government's hit list. I'm not going to let myself be destroyed by this government. I want to live. Anyway, that's how I feel about it. I don't know if people will say I'm selfish. I believe that others have to continue the work I have started. A democracy movement can't succeed with only one person!
I was a middle-school teen in 1989. And I actually took to the streets in Shanghai with some classmates on June
5th, not knowing what had happened in Beijing just the day before due to news blockade.
I think we put up a banner of some sort ... And I honestly cannot recall what was written on it, possibly something to do with corruption and what not. I don't think we wrote anything about "democracy" because we didn't understand it. Corruption we thought we had some concept of, particularly since those were the 官倒 heydays that even an entity like 漏斗子 lamented ... All I remember was that my penmanship was deemed way too atrocious to grace the banner.
Anyhow, looking back, it was a tragedy all in all.
I still maintain that Deng has committed a
crime on this. The crime was
not necessarily to keep order over chaos. But it was to trust the words and recommendations of the likes of Jiang Zemin, some of the most despicable characters ever emerging out of Shanghai.
I maintain that what took place was not the only way to end the unrest.
But looking back, as a very, very junior "participant", I must fully concede that the alternative may have been "Katastroika".
BTW, as an digression, Gorbachev was my grandfather's hero. And I also admire the man, his conscience, and courage. There was/is no logically inevitable connections between "Glasnost" and botched "Perestroika".
Yeltsin bore greater responsibility for turning Perestroika into "Katastroika" by my reckoning.
Back to topic ... I am glad this Chai Ling lady found religion, as I have. There sure is a lot to cleanse ... Her brand of astounding selfishness and lack of honour must in some ways be the by-product of the Great Proletariat
Kultural Revolution ...
That's another topic.