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After looking at this post in this forum
State Duma chief suggests trying US for WWII nuke attacks
Well, this post is a troll post, but there are some question worth noticing tho, about the state of mind of killing (Legal or Not) How normal people react to people being kill, death and dying. I have decided to write an article to address how soldiers themselves react to kill, death and dying. Hope to give reader more insight of how and what it feels for soldier in battle. Enjoy
If i have to list 10 questions that people ask when soldier coming home. Top of that list would have to be "Did you kill anybody?" Other than "How's it over there?" or "Did you see any combat?". People, or civilian in a sense, asked this question like they are expecting an answer to settle a bar bet or something.
I don't know about all vet, but some vet that i know would see this as an insult to answer such question, they may react violently toward those who asked. For me, i will just simply give him/her a smile and walk away. To some people, it may simply be just a silly question. but to some vet, me included, would mean that going back and face that demon you so want to leave behind.
Soldier Kills, that's the nature of the their business, wrote time and again here in this forum and everywhere else, don't make no mistake, each soldier are trained to kill, and that is the sole function you exist as a soldier.
Now, i am not going to say i am a saint. I did bad thing, let's put this out in the open first. Things that in normal life you would disgust, things that you would feel sick if you would have done them in a normal situation. But after all, war is not normal, in fact, was is never normal to begin with. Yet people who went thru war aren't insane or crazy to begin with. Sometime i wish i was crazy, it will be better off.
Who you killed, why you killed, how you killed, it's doesn't matter, right? It's just war. I mean, when a person is dead, he IS dead, how he died would make anything different? I mean, you can't exactly get anymore ultimate than dead right? I know this would matter a lot if we all sit on the same line, that called law. It matters when it's civil. But what's it matter in war?
But then one also have to ask, even tho the business of soldier is killing. Yet why is it used so lightly in a soldier's everyday life? Two word, "Killing" and "Dead" are heavily substituted within the Army, or within an operation. You would hear
"Target Eliminated"
"Silence it"
"Target Down"
"Finish it"
"He's gone"
"He's done"
"He's non-operational"
"He's expired"
instead of using the word Kills, or Killing, Dead or Dying.
Some people may suggest that we use those word so it would look professional. It would if we are in the business of writing. What we do not always in blaze of glory, what we do because we need to do, not like we wanted it, we needed it or we required it. Then using those word would make sense. You neither needed, wanted or required to kill, but then the very first meaning of using those word is to kill, you can say it's just a process of denial, but you can also say this is the way we are coping with the concept of killing.
Killing someone is never easy, it would get easier if you kill him from afar, say, it would be easier to press the button and drop a 500lbs bomb and kill about 10-100 people then it would be say when you kill a men with your rifle in range like 100 or 150 meters, then it would says you kill a men 5 ft in front of you using your sidearm.
The thought of killing is never easy to accept, but you can trick yourselves or lies to yourselves that it would just be like that. You can tell yourselves hey, i don't know if any of those people are dead when i drop the bomb, maybe they got done in by ground fires first, i don't know. Or Maybe that bullet that killed that men is not from my gun, i mean how can i see which bullet is which if i am 100 or 150 metes away and not just me firing at that dude? Now if you say like that, then using gone instead of dead and eliminate instead of kill would make sense, as this was called "Desensitize"
Now, when you get to a point, the last case is going to met you face to face, when you have to kill a man 5 ft away from you, you no longer can denied it, it must be you, as there are literally no one else. And now you need to suffer from the psychological consequences. And yet, you know it's you, and still when you found out that there would be no consequence. It may seems strange, but something will hits you.
Now step away from a bit, when i was about to deploy to Iraq for my first tour, everyone was excited. Yet everyone is scared. You won't know it and they won't tell you simply because you need to put on a brave face. Then the top bass pull over us some small lowly officer for a pre-deploy chat. and the colonel pull me out and says
"How do you feel, Lieutenant?"
"I am fine, ready to go kick some asses, 100%, sir" I know it was my bravado talking.
But then he said
"I know you are ready, but are you prepared? Lieutenant?"
I got stumped by this question. i don't really know what to say as I don't know what is it he is asking..., I mean, how can you be ready but not prepared? So i said
"What do you mean sir?" And the following sentence have been play back in the back of my mind over and over and over again ever since i came back from the gulf. Do you want to know what he said?
"War is for doers, not for thinkers"
Well, what he said does have a nice ring for it. And i can't seems to forget what he say not because i actually like that phase, or have anything to do with me stealing the British SAS motto and use it as our own "Who Dares Wins" But simply because how simple and how true is this sentence.
Back in Iraq, I have a mirror on my overhead, and everyday i woke up, i look at the mirror for a few second. Everyday, i got shit handed to me in a platter, i did that, i did this and it was over, and then i will be in my bed waking up to the same mirror. As each day passes, your feeling dies a little, and as day turn into the night and turn into days, it's getting routine.
Most of the things you do, you did not do that out of fear, nor out of hate, or out of necessity, this is just what you do. You went out, do some shit, come back, sleep in the same bed and looking at the same mirror looking at yourselves. You do that about 365 times and you go home.
Now waking up 2 years down the road, the smell of desert is a distant memory from behind. I look at thee same piece of mirror i bought to Iraq and brought back, the mirror is the same, the bed aren't and it just suddenly hits me, when you look at that same piece of mirror, you think back to all of the things that you've been done. You suddenly realise, you do not do it because somebody order you to, as i say people seldom use the work kills or dead in war, nor would it be out of fear, or in some case, you don't do it because it needed to, but you do that because you wanted to, so that you can come home alive. It's as simple as I wanted to kill that person so that i want to made it out alive. No one ever force you, that's your own desire.
Then you looking at the mirror, and you ask yourselves, "Who Are You?"
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State Duma chief suggests trying US for WWII nuke attacks
Well, this post is a troll post, but there are some question worth noticing tho, about the state of mind of killing (Legal or Not) How normal people react to people being kill, death and dying. I have decided to write an article to address how soldiers themselves react to kill, death and dying. Hope to give reader more insight of how and what it feels for soldier in battle. Enjoy
If i have to list 10 questions that people ask when soldier coming home. Top of that list would have to be "Did you kill anybody?" Other than "How's it over there?" or "Did you see any combat?". People, or civilian in a sense, asked this question like they are expecting an answer to settle a bar bet or something.
I don't know about all vet, but some vet that i know would see this as an insult to answer such question, they may react violently toward those who asked. For me, i will just simply give him/her a smile and walk away. To some people, it may simply be just a silly question. but to some vet, me included, would mean that going back and face that demon you so want to leave behind.
Soldier Kills, that's the nature of the their business, wrote time and again here in this forum and everywhere else, don't make no mistake, each soldier are trained to kill, and that is the sole function you exist as a soldier.
Now, i am not going to say i am a saint. I did bad thing, let's put this out in the open first. Things that in normal life you would disgust, things that you would feel sick if you would have done them in a normal situation. But after all, war is not normal, in fact, was is never normal to begin with. Yet people who went thru war aren't insane or crazy to begin with. Sometime i wish i was crazy, it will be better off.
Who you killed, why you killed, how you killed, it's doesn't matter, right? It's just war. I mean, when a person is dead, he IS dead, how he died would make anything different? I mean, you can't exactly get anymore ultimate than dead right? I know this would matter a lot if we all sit on the same line, that called law. It matters when it's civil. But what's it matter in war?
But then one also have to ask, even tho the business of soldier is killing. Yet why is it used so lightly in a soldier's everyday life? Two word, "Killing" and "Dead" are heavily substituted within the Army, or within an operation. You would hear
"Target Eliminated"
"Silence it"
"Target Down"
"Finish it"
"He's gone"
"He's done"
"He's non-operational"
"He's expired"
instead of using the word Kills, or Killing, Dead or Dying.
Some people may suggest that we use those word so it would look professional. It would if we are in the business of writing. What we do not always in blaze of glory, what we do because we need to do, not like we wanted it, we needed it or we required it. Then using those word would make sense. You neither needed, wanted or required to kill, but then the very first meaning of using those word is to kill, you can say it's just a process of denial, but you can also say this is the way we are coping with the concept of killing.
Killing someone is never easy, it would get easier if you kill him from afar, say, it would be easier to press the button and drop a 500lbs bomb and kill about 10-100 people then it would be say when you kill a men with your rifle in range like 100 or 150 meters, then it would says you kill a men 5 ft in front of you using your sidearm.
The thought of killing is never easy to accept, but you can trick yourselves or lies to yourselves that it would just be like that. You can tell yourselves hey, i don't know if any of those people are dead when i drop the bomb, maybe they got done in by ground fires first, i don't know. Or Maybe that bullet that killed that men is not from my gun, i mean how can i see which bullet is which if i am 100 or 150 metes away and not just me firing at that dude? Now if you say like that, then using gone instead of dead and eliminate instead of kill would make sense, as this was called "Desensitize"
Now, when you get to a point, the last case is going to met you face to face, when you have to kill a man 5 ft away from you, you no longer can denied it, it must be you, as there are literally no one else. And now you need to suffer from the psychological consequences. And yet, you know it's you, and still when you found out that there would be no consequence. It may seems strange, but something will hits you.
Now step away from a bit, when i was about to deploy to Iraq for my first tour, everyone was excited. Yet everyone is scared. You won't know it and they won't tell you simply because you need to put on a brave face. Then the top bass pull over us some small lowly officer for a pre-deploy chat. and the colonel pull me out and says
"How do you feel, Lieutenant?"
"I am fine, ready to go kick some asses, 100%, sir" I know it was my bravado talking.
But then he said
"I know you are ready, but are you prepared? Lieutenant?"
I got stumped by this question. i don't really know what to say as I don't know what is it he is asking..., I mean, how can you be ready but not prepared? So i said
"What do you mean sir?" And the following sentence have been play back in the back of my mind over and over and over again ever since i came back from the gulf. Do you want to know what he said?
"War is for doers, not for thinkers"
Well, what he said does have a nice ring for it. And i can't seems to forget what he say not because i actually like that phase, or have anything to do with me stealing the British SAS motto and use it as our own "Who Dares Wins" But simply because how simple and how true is this sentence.
Back in Iraq, I have a mirror on my overhead, and everyday i woke up, i look at the mirror for a few second. Everyday, i got shit handed to me in a platter, i did that, i did this and it was over, and then i will be in my bed waking up to the same mirror. As each day passes, your feeling dies a little, and as day turn into the night and turn into days, it's getting routine.
Most of the things you do, you did not do that out of fear, nor out of hate, or out of necessity, this is just what you do. You went out, do some shit, come back, sleep in the same bed and looking at the same mirror looking at yourselves. You do that about 365 times and you go home.
Now waking up 2 years down the road, the smell of desert is a distant memory from behind. I look at thee same piece of mirror i bought to Iraq and brought back, the mirror is the same, the bed aren't and it just suddenly hits me, when you look at that same piece of mirror, you think back to all of the things that you've been done. You suddenly realise, you do not do it because somebody order you to, as i say people seldom use the work kills or dead in war, nor would it be out of fear, or in some case, you don't do it because it needed to, but you do that because you wanted to, so that you can come home alive. It's as simple as I wanted to kill that person so that i want to made it out alive. No one ever force you, that's your own desire.
Then you looking at the mirror, and you ask yourselves, "Who Are You?"
@Slav Defence
@Nihonjin1051
@levina
@Neptune
@AUSTERLITZ
@FaujHistorian
@Hakan
@Oscar
@Umair Nawaz
@Side-Winder
@KingMamba
@Horus
@WebMaster