I am not feeling good [Just had another break down]

[Arsalan 345]

I have had depression for past few years (nearly 3.5 years to be exact) since Aug 2015. I have a flood of thoughts in my head literally 24/7. I have not been able to sleep until 1 or 2 am every night, and sometimes until 4. I remain so tired and exhausted all through out the day from this sleep mess plus the mental strain within me. These thoughts (some good and some bad) can't seem go find a way out of my head after so long. and its around the same theme for years. and these hit me so suddenly multiple times a day. as almost like a day dream but with a lot of pain. I will try my best to describe as much as I can. I get these lumps in my throat, my eyes get teary, many chills get sent down my spin, my stomach feel light and funny, and my heart feels though as someone is scrubbing thrones on it. It seems as I am loosing my nature, my vibrancy, my identity to this sickness. Because of my depression, I have stopped hanging out with most of my friends, i rarely talk to them if ever, I ignore there messages on Snapchat and texts on my number. I only talk to a few buds from school and work, which are okay. I don't want them to know about what i am going through. i don't want anyone to know in real life what I am going through. i want to fix this sh*t myself. I dont want to feel cocky, but the decisions i made 3.5 years ago I REGRET to this day and they still effect me/stay relevant. just to let everyone know, I don't feel lonely. its the opposite. i want to distance myself from the 'vogue' lifestyle. i want to loose all these 100s of contacts/aquitances (in the US) and this extravagant complex living to come onto simple dwelling by myself and a special some one somewhere far away.... It is not easy for me. i keep having depressing thoughts since that date (due to what happened to me then)... and things really havennt in my favor since, other new things coming along the way as well... Just as PAINFUL. nothing to soothe. i look at it at a sum point of view, i have nothing else to do but break down crying.

do things that suits you.think about other things that you want to do in your life.we can't go further if we think that everything is over.nothing is over yet.there are many problems,psychological problems,social problems.do whatever is best for your life.if you think about past,you will feel more pain.very few people are fortunate.most of us suffers pain.past is past.we must move on.forget those people who don't care about you.care about yourself.you can pet a cat or dog.help people with whatever you have.let your kindness rule your world.people are selfish.forget your friends who are selfish.help poor.give them food.if you believe in religion then you must read it more.simple life is not bad.forget past.think about the upcoming years.if you are married,enjoy life.if unmarried then try to find your love.people die.it's a fact.yesterday a person died in our area.we can only learn lesson.life is a gift.forget all your problems.bring video games and start playing online games.go to reddit.do whatever you want on reddit.there are many interesting topics on reddit.you can meet a new community there.everything takes courage.stay strong.ask your doctor to help you.don't take too much antibiotic or sleeping pills.stay strong man.

 

[313ghazi]

Wow, amazing to read so many accounts from other people who have faced depression or anxiety. I'm glad as a community we can talk about it. 20 years ago people would not dear speak about it out of fear of being written off as "pagal".

 

[Great Janjua]

Praying for you hope you make it through this tough time with general easy and prosperity may Allah give you mercy and bestow his blessing upon you he is the most merciful the most beneficent we all go through some kind of emotional time in our lives all we need to do in order to overcome it be thankful for life and try doing activities that help us realize that life matters and we should embrace it wholeheartedly. Short story I just came back from pakistan like a month ago and truly miss my gigantic family back there and whenever I get memories of the fun times I go into crying mode and into a down mood for a couple of days I know it's not the same case with you but what am trying to get across is be happy that Allah has bestowed this gift of life upon us and we should do something that keeps us away from the negative aspects hope you pull away from this bad time again praying for you yara if your from pakistan visit kharian I'll show you a good time may Allah bless you

 

[WebMaster]

Im too anxious to discuss it throughly with anyone. I can't even with close friends. I appreciate your concern.

Its easy to discuss with strangers. They don't know you, you don't have to worry about privacy.

 

[jamahir]

I am show how it is done and put him to work. I will quit out from my job on a very busy business day (Saturday night). And he will be left without a chef. So his a*s well be put on work. The hiring process takes about a week. So he will be left without a chef for a week. And he will be working 10 times as much for that time.

When I quit. I am sure he will mess up so much food. He will burn the BBQ, he will burn the Naan. He won’t have time to cook other dishes like Haleem, Karai, Nihari. He will work so slow. Customers will be mad at him. He will loose so much money.

you can pet a cat

Yes.

@Dewaneh , the best thing you can do is work for humanity. Which is why I said earlier that you should join a progressive political movement like Occupy or the CPUSA.

 

[Well.wisher]

Why dear

 

[lastofthepatriots]

Why dear

His problem is that he won't explain the tragic event that happened to him in his life, so we really can't help him. He wants to keep it private but then we on the forum are not mind readers here. I'm almost 80% sure it has to do with a girl from America breaking his heart. @Dewaneh

 

[Valar.]

His problem is that he won't explain the tragic event that happened to him in his life, so we really can't help him. He wants to keep it private but then we on the forum are not mind readers here. I'm almost 80% sure it has to do with a girl from America breaking his heart. @Dewaneh

He needs to watch 500 Days of Summer.

 

[lastofthepatriots]

He needs to watch 500 Days of Summer.

**** that movie. I was dragged to that film by multiple friends having a crisis. I've seen that movie almost 5 times in the theater by friends that wanted me to accompany them in their pity party. I told them that they should forget the bitch or asshole that broke their heart before they dragged me to the movie. After they saw the movie, they would then agree with me. I was like wtf?

@Zibago will probably consider this film a part of a hadees in terms of his life.

 

[Well.wisher]

His problem is that he won't explain the tragic event that happened to him in his life, so we really can't help him. He wants to keep it private but then we on the forum are not mind readers here. I'm almost 80% sure it has to do with a girl from America breaking his heart. @Dewaneh

Faiz Ahmed faiz ny farmaya tha '
Or bhi ghum hain zamaany me muhabbat k siwa '.
his heartbreak due to girl is just a probability .

 

[lastofthepatriots]

Faiz Ahmed faiz ny farmaya tha '
Or bhi ghum hain zamaany me muhabbat k siwa '.
his heartbreak due to girl is just a probability .

It's possible, but unless he tells us, we have no idea.

 

[Well.wisher]

@Dewaneh ..
Zindagi ki raaho me muskraty raho hmesha
Udaas dilon ko hamdard to miltay hain humsafar nahi ..

 

[Kompromat]

I'm not your friend but i am professionally trained for these situations. So yeah, if you do feel like having a chat, hit me up.

Im too anxious to discuss it throughly with anyone. I can't even with close friends. I appreciate your concern.

 

[Moonlight]

@Dewaneh

It would be a long post. Sorry for that.


First of all, I’m sorry to hear about your situation.

Ok there are two different stages of depression. In the beginning, sleepless nights & then come a time, when you are sleepy all the time.

Listen, you can not do everything in life on your own. What is the main purpose of humanity then? We all....ALL...need someone’s help at some point of our lives. It can be physical, financial, moral, verbal or any other kind of help.

Just find someone to speak your heart out. Talk to your siblings, maybe a stranger or a coworker? But vent it out.

Also, don’t overthink about what happened yesterday. It has happened. But now it is up to you, wether you want to continue thinking about it to ruin your present & future or simply learn the lesson and move on?

Moving on isn’t easy, I aceept it. But it isn’t impossible too. You just have to sit with yourself one day & talk to yourself. Ask yourself a lot of questions & then answer them all.

When your heart is so heavy, write down your thoughts, feelings, insecurities, fears and whatever you want.

And now seeing depression with religious point of view.
Our prophets, all of them, went through a lot. They faced grief & depression too.
So your feelings are genuine. But you can’t simply cry over it without any doing anything to tackle with this problem.

Along with praying, see a psychologist. Consult with someone. Don’t simply go through it & pity yourself all the time, or think low of yourself. But help yourself.

May almighty help you. Amen.

Its easy to discuss with strangers. They don't know you, you don't have to worry about privacy.

And they don’t judge.


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@The Sandman @django @Hell hound @Zibago

 

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@Dewaneh

It would be a long post. Sorry for that.


First of all, I’m sorry to hear about your situation.

Ok there are two different stages of depression. In the beginning, sleepless nights & then come a time, when you are sleepy all the time.

Listen, you can not do everything in life on your own. What is the main purpose of humanity then? We all....ALL...need someone’s help at some point of our lives. It can be physical, financial, moral, verbal or any other kind of help.

Just find someone to speak your heart out. Talk to your siblings, maybe a stranger or a coworker? But vent it out.

Also, don’t overthink about what happened yesterday. It has happened. But now it is up to you, wether you want to continue thinking about it to ruin your present & future or simply learn the lesson and move on?

Moving on isn’t easy, I aceept it. But it isn’t impossible too. You just have to sit with yourself one day & talk to yourself. Ask yourself a lot of questions & then answer them all.

When your heart is so heavy, write down your thoughts, feelings, insecurities, fears and whatever you want.

And now seeing depression with religious point of view.
Our prophets, all of them, went through a lot. They faced grief & depression too.
So your feelings are genuine. But you can’t simply cry over it without any doing anything to tackle with this problem.

Along with praying, see a psychologist. Consult with someone. Don’t simply go through it & pity yourself all the time, or think low of yourself. But help yourself.

May almighty help you. Amen.



And they don’t judge.


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@The Sandman @django @Hell hound @Zibago

Thanks a lot for the good words. You’ve put a lot of time into this post. I came to conclusion that I have a really weird type of depression. I don’t feel bad all the time but I most of the time I am demotivated, uninterested, and very pathetic to life in general. Everything in life feels so dull, so boring, so colorless.

I think the way to solve it is to bring more meaning into my life. Like doing a fair more activities and hobbies. Most important of them all is become more better Muslim.

The environment that I am living within doesnt breed jubilance. I need to get far away as possible the place where I am currently living. Perhaps a Shift towards the Gulf countries, Turkey, France, etc.