Son,
Most pakistani kids are inherently stupid---you know why---because that is how they are raised---.
You want to be a doctor on one hand---ie the saviour of lives---and on the other hand---you want to be a murderer of people---a killing machine---an ssg---. Oh those hormones---I remember when I was in my teens----when was that---around 40 years ago----Dr Jekyl and Mr Hyde---.
You get the drift----hehnnnn----. There is a lots of conflict going on in your mind. You need to decide what your first priority in life is---who do you want to be.
You need to learn to climb one hill at a time----life is terribly difficult----take it one step at a time----.
Most pakistani kids want to show off at your age as to what they want to do---. Stay away from being a show off----.
Did someone just pointed a mirror at me!!!!!!