damn man your first marriage is happening in your early 40s
You were having way too much fun or something?
I fear same would happen to me too
I am just not ready for any kind of serious relationship, like my parents bother me about it but like I just cant see myself marrying someone rn
I mean I am at a marriage age, outta university but mentally just can't see myself ready for it and shits scaring the hell outta me (because my mother contacts me every night and talk crap about my marriage future...)
Maybe you have had similar issues, your lifestyle isn't ready to accept a partner