I wake up every morning betting with Allah swt that society can not be more fukt up as it is. In the face of Allah swt, I always lose.
I go on YouTube and see endless videos of random children talking about blue pill and red pill. Some of them being faggots, while others insulting women.
As an ethnic Punjabi, when I listen to these white faggots insult women my blood boils. My father told me that in our society, the women would build the house using mud clay. My grandmother built our house with her own hands in our village. We live in that house to this day.
This is the society I am living in. The US as a country may be powerful, but it’s a country that is powerless. The new generation is disgusting not only because of their opinions but because of their behavior.
Family values, religion, and the lack of searching for a purpose makes me vomit. I was born in 1990 and the world was becoming such a wonderful place. I was excited.
Today I am absolutely disgusted. I feel like I don’t belong here. I go to work and feel so dissociated with the people I speak with.
People that I speak with seem like the spawn of the devil.
I have gotten married in 2019 and have a child. He seems so happy in Pakistan, I feel like bringing him to the US will **** his mind. In the same token I feel like him living in Pakistan will be no different as the military elite in our country are also faggots and on the payroll of foreign faggots.
Human beings are so fucked in the head they praise AI projects that will replace their own jobs. I can’t even talk to stupid **** people like this.
I don’t know wtf I am doing here on this earth anymore. News songs or movies bring me no joy. American and or western society is no longer exciting because they are on a downward spiral.
I don’t understand wtf I am living life for anymore except that I am a Muslim and suicide is no option. Do I feel suicidal? All the fucking time. Everything disgusts me. When I wake up I feel disgusted. I don’t understand what has happened to me. Is it age or depression or what?
I don’t know wtf is going on. The world has gone crazy but maybe it’s not the world, but just me.
I’m in a very weird place right now. If any of you can relate with me, please show me a way out. I just don’t understand.
Where exactly are you in the US roughly?
Its an immense country, so there is likely a better (or at least more tolerable) spot for you where you wont be bombarded by the upsetting crap.
It is worth cultivating stoicism and virtue in these times.
Ungratefulness and narcissism and the atomized extreme individualism that grows it comes from an extreme epicurean complex in the end. Then it trumpets itself for sake of trumpeting, because these kind of people seek to dominate what is outside them rather than conquer what is within them.
You have family/dependents (the needs of which obviously concern and worry you) so you have unlocked a large part of it already and are on the right path if you stay the course as reasonably as you can. i.e a greater purpose in life you know deep down.
Putting others ahead of you is a big part of realised stoicism in the end....you will never be part of what is upsetting to you around you....as much as it might affect you as you are, like all of us, a perceptible emotional being in the end.
You see it is only those with no true purpose and path of virtue.... that become pawns and lemmings of evil designs.
You are not that person as you have grown something already to work on and you deep down know the fruit of that hard labour will arrive much later.
That is the realisation the epicurean hedonist does not have....he always wants the immediate selfish need at any cost....and loses all sense of greater purpose and being in that pursuit only. The current iteration are the ones that do not strive to even start a family...and those willing to be coerced by this complex. The western world has afforded this dystopia to develop.
i.e It is non-family oriented, isolated types that are driving the mentality you see in the West that you abhor. The family unit has been broken down by big powerful govt + media + corporate to take advantage of the void it leaves (in their selfish pursuit and hubris).
You know this all to be true and you have created life with another, it is something you
chose to do (unlike others).... you have taken on the responsibility and deep purpose of this. So you will find answers to get past these troubles, dont worry. I've seen it with many others in similar situation.
Any darkness will inevitably come but ultimately pass like clouds in the sky from this rooted purpose.