RIP?? Arre this is the biggest battle field humans have faced from time immemorial!! If you can, you can ask, Alexandar, Genghis Khan, Napoleon or General Arthur Douglas or any present day general!! In a nuclear exchange between Ind-Pak we will die immediately, but here we die everyday!! Yes we live for for few moments though!!
Any way you have not given any reason, so I will take it as you are prepared for the obvious!
You may not been in a hurry, but ultimately you will loose it, if not for any other reason, but for peer pressure!!
What to do man, some times you feel like every person in this world should know about your fights!!

and have sympathy!!