OK I won't ask you the route but are you then a private mercenary on contract from NATO or a "proud volunteer from the glorious Capitalist empire helping the massacred people of Ukraine" or are you still somehow officially connected with NATO ?
That what you don't understand, and probably never will.
I know many people from Ukraine and Russia, I used to live in Ukraine for a period of time, and have know people in Ukraine. In fact, I happened to serve with the person who now in charge of the 95th Air Assault Brigade. We serve together in a MNU in Iraq.
For you, this is between NATO and Russia, for me, this is a personal issue, trust me when I say this, if NATO are 10% more involved in this war, Russia would have beaten back already. For me, NATO focus is to make Sweden and Finland under their camp, NATO don't really care whether or not Ukrainian would live or die fighting the Russian. They needed this war to show it to Sweden and Finland, and guess what, it worked for NATO. But Ukraine were left behind.
So no, what I did that is a personal favor for someone I know. If NATO want Ukraine to win, they would have release their strategic stock (There are more than 10,000 tanks and about 4000 piece of artillery piece being store in reserve in NATO country) which at this day is just sitting in a warehouse somewhere gathering dust. SO before you try to use me and spin it on NATO, I will have you know NATO did jack shit on this, compare to what they could have done.